Thursday, October 11, 2007

Test Results Came back (Warning TMI ahead)

Test results came back. Nothing odd... they didn't mention that a cyst burst during the ultrasound but that is okay. Bloodwork came back with my FSH:LH indicating PCOS... well duh. Biopsy came back just indicating a normal stage of menses. However, it took them forever to get back to me and my period started on it's own, nice and heavy. So the instructions that she had given the nurse need to be checked out since I started and she was going to give me provera.

My problem is that I don't usually have a problem getting my period, with the exception of when I was on metformin, but that sometimes it comes too often now. I didn't realize until I talked to her that it was coming every 12 to 14 days instead of every 30. She also wants me to start YAZ again but to watch my diet and exercise while I am on it.

I have really mixed feeling about being on the birth control pill. On one hand I totally understand that unless my hormones get under control, I could attempt to lose weight until I am blue in the face and it won't happen. I know that I am not healthy enough to deal with a pregnancy. But on the other hand.... I want to be pregnant, not preventing it.

I need to face the reality... naturally and not naturally, I will never be a mother... it just isn't in the cards for me.
The money and the support for adoption just isn't there, so no, it is not an option.

My husband would make such a good dad... I hate that because of me... he won't get the opportunity.


Kristi said...

My heart aches for you....I wish I were rich and could provide all the adoption money you'd need. :(

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

calliope said...

oh honey, I am so sorry you are in this head space.
I hate that treatments and other options are so out of reach for the people that would benefit the most.

Dreamer4agift said...

I'm sorry for what you're dealing with right now. Keeping you in my prayers.