May 1st!

I was really hoping that a new month would make things look a bit brighter around here but no such luck. I am trying not to whine about it. We have a family get together on Sunday for a 1st Communion and I really wanted to go. However, I just don't feel up to dealing with my step family. I haven't RSVP'd yet and I really should...I just don't know what to do. We were talking about it last night and had decided to go, however, things are blowing up again this morning and I don't have the energy to feign enjoyment there. My niece is a good kid. It isn't her fault. However, during the course of the day, if we say more than 10 words to her that would be a miracle with all the people around. Besides that, she really wanted to spend the day with a friend of hers in her communion group, so they are having a combined party. More strangers to deal with and more crap to explain. My parents won't be there. My sister and brother are not flying in from Florida. Long time family friends won't be there so that leaves me with the possibility of the people that hate me and us being there. I can't face that this week.

I know in my heart that God doesn't punish us for stuff and that all the coinciding things just are--- however, right now--- I'm at a breaking point.

Gotta run and go reinspect a building that the people failed to obtain access to all units at the last appointment. I hope that they are there today. I don't have time to waste on this anymore.