Wednesday, October 22, 2008

All I wanna do is...

BINGE. Dh got a call on the way home... Those friends who were married, um, 78 days ago and moved across country? Well whoops with all the chaos she ended up pregant. Yea... That is the second of dh's friends that ended up becoming pregnant by their 3rd month anniversary. Too bad he got stuck with the dud.

I'm afraid to move because I will lose it. I hate being the person who can't be happy for someone else. It is a vicious cycle of self loathing and I can't seem to get out. Breathing... It is hard right now.

3 comments:

Me said...

I totally understand. I saw a funny plaque/picture in a catalog that came to my house... it was a really weird picture but I loved what it said...

Across the top: "The world would be perfect"

Across the bottom: "If only I could burst people into flames with my mind"

Carrie said...

I'm sorry. It is so difficult to stop and watch as life seems to march on seemingly easily for others.
I think the self loathing and inadequacy thing is one of the most dangerous parts of this whole deal.
Have you received your results yet?

Lollipop Goldstein said...

Oh sweetie, he didn't get the dud--he got the best in the group. The one with the biggest heart.