Test Results Came back (Warning TMI ahead)

Test results came back. Nothing odd... they didn't mention that a cyst burst during the ultrasound but that is okay. Bloodwork came back with my FSH:LH indicating PCOS... well duh. Biopsy came back just indicating a normal stage of menses. However, it took them forever to get back to me and my period started on it's own, nice and heavy. So the instructions that she had given the nurse need to be checked out since I started and she was going to give me provera.

My problem is that I don't usually have a problem getting my period, with the exception of when I was on metformin, but that sometimes it comes too often now. I didn't realize until I talked to her that it was coming every 12 to 14 days instead of every 30. She also wants me to start YAZ again but to watch my diet and exercise while I am on it.

I have really mixed feeling about being on the birth control pill. On one hand I totally understand that unless my hormones get under control, I could attempt to lose weight until I am blue in the face and it won't happen. I know that I am not healthy enough to deal with a pregnancy. But on the other hand.... I want to be pregnant, not preventing it.

I need to face the reality... naturally and not naturally, I will never be a mother... it just isn't in the cards for me.
The money and the support for adoption just isn't there, so no, it is not an option.

My husband would make such a good dad... I hate that because of me... he won't get the opportunity.

Not Your Mom's Sloppy Joes recipe

I was playing around with sloppy joes this week and came up with a combo that my dh and I really liked.



Approximately 1lb extra lean ground beef (95-97%)
1 large onion (less if you aren't an onion fan)
3/4 to a full red bell pepper
1.5 cups sliced mushrooms (more or less if you don't like mushrooms)
2 small cans tomato sauce
1 tbls minced garlic
3 shakes Worcester sauce (about 3 tbls)
2 shakes chipolte Tabasco sauce (about 2tsps)
Black pepper to taste

spray skillet with nonstick spray such as pam. Start to sweat the onions and the garlic out. After a few minutes add the ground beef and break it up into small chunks. Add the bell pepper and mushrooms. When the meat is cooked, if desired, drain and rinse (I didn't do this because there wasn't a whole lot of drippings in the pan). Add black pepper to your taste, tomato sauce, Worcester sauce, and chipolte sauce. Mix well and then let it simmer until the sauce thickens up to your desired thickness and the onions are cooked through.

Serve over whole grain bun/bread of your choice.

Dunt, Dunt.. Dunnnn

Everything I have to say is pretty negative right now. My fave team, lack of medical results, strange occurances in our neighborhood that the police are keeping out of the news, Cycle day 30 and no AF and a negative test, work stupidity,--these are just a few of the reasons sooo...

I did finish Dying for Chocolate By Diane Mott Davidson and I was glad that I picked up the second in the series. It had some interesting recipes in it and was an interesting plot. In the end, I hadn't even thought about that story line as an option so I always enjoy a mystery that keeps me surprised. If you like easy reading mysteries... start with Catering for Nobody and then if you enjoy it, move on to this. Although... it would definately be readable without reading the first one, which is always nice too.

Ok, Blog silence for a bit... back when I have some news or something good to say.

Netflix Discovery

I had been searching movies before and came across this movie previously. Today I was aggravated because I went to finish Failure to Launch and it got stuck in the exact same spot again. I had cleaned the disc before but it still had issues. I am going to try it in my laptop but otherwise I am sending it back without finishing it.

Anyhow, I'm Reed Fish was an interesting movie that in a way reminded me of Northern Exposure. I don't think this film got released nationally but it was worth watching. If you like movies about small town, every day life, with a few eccentric characters than most likely you will enjoy this film.

Tuesday TV

I guess I really should find something to do on Tuesday nights. There is nothing that interests me on TV at all. After 7:30... I'm lost. Currently I do like The Singing Bee because it is short and to the point. Plus it usually has a theme--Tonight's was 1 hit wonders. I haven't been getting into too many game shows lately.

I used to be a big fan of The Biggest Loser but a lot of times, it would work against my motivation instead of enhancing it. Since I have been really down lately on my weight and lack of progress, watching the teams fight it out in such an overexercising lifestyle, is not a good idea.

Maybe... naw, there are no exercises classes that I can do at the gym but I guess I could plan a long workout for Tuesday nights.

HAHAHA! That would mean that I would have to exercise and get to the gym.

Happiness Challenge # 1

Whoops... I forgot to post about this earlier. Guess that is pretty indicative of how this challenge went. It was a bust. Mel at Stirrup Queens was hosting a Happiness Challenge for the month of September. The idea was to come up with a ritual that would make you happy and commit to doing it at least once a week if not more. My ritual was to have breakfast with my DH three times per week. While it was a great idea, in reality, my dh is not the best person to plan on spending the morning with apparently.

I kept a record for the first week and only had breakfast twice with DH. Both of those started off pretty rocky. Otherwise, we had breakfast together twice more the entire month. The first attempt out of the gate happened to be on a day that he was really cranky and he had a hissy fit just as we were sitting down to eat. This put a big damper on even trying again but I did. We had a pleasant breakfast a few days later while we were getting ready for work. Otherwise one breakfast attempt was out and it was ruined by both of our cranky moods for the day. I believe that we had another breakfast at home that was short but calm.