My world could change or crumble with a phone call

Today I am waiting for that yes or no call from the doctor. I had a followup from my surgery yesterday (all good) and when I told her my symptoms over the past 3 weeks she thought a blood pregnancy test was in order just to make sure that I am not one of the 1% that HPT's don't work for as I have never had a positive even when I probably should have.

Here's hoping that the nausea, fatigue, constipation, headaches, lack of concentration, and weepyness over the past 3 weeks along with a super light period are for a positive reason.....
and not just a manifestation of some other issue such as depression or thyroid.

I'm terrified of the answer since with a positive our life will change. With a negative I'm afraid of letting my emotions take over.


Supposed to know before 2pm today.... Yikes.

Edit 3:30pm: No phone call, the big question now, do I call or assume it is negative?

Oh how you taunt me...

Oh how you taunt me, you silly pee stick. Today is cycle day 26 and I woke up with a migraine so as a desperate attempt to find some sunshine today I decided to use FMU to see if we actually caught the egg that I supposedly released. Depending on the light there is a slight line but I took the darn thing apart and it must just be an evaporation line. It's not over yet but if my headache is any indication it will be on Sunday. Yay, just in time for the worst day of my cycle to be while we are flying to Florida for my Grandmother's funeral. Gah!

Holding on to a thread of hope...

The Truth About trying

Two good things have come my way....

I actually got a CD22 progesterone test done yesterday and the nurse called me today with the results. I wanted to get it done so that I had the info when I go back for my last followup with my ob/gyn from my surgery in a few weeks. The level was 15 for a non-medicated cycle. From everything I can find it seems like that means I ovulated on my own this month. I didn't chart and I wish I would have but oh well, too late now. Of course now to keep my mind off of it for the next several days....

The other good thing was getting some work issues resolved that I have been dealing with for 6 weeks. It's been very trying since the item that I needed to take care of expires tomorrow but it is resolved and in the best way possible so I am a happy camper today.

Better get walking, I'm doing a virtual walk to Lake Michigan with hopefully a completion date by Thanksgiving but I am already behind so off I go!

Have a healthy day!

Answers?

Well Maybe? The lap, which was more complicated than it should have been due to a blood vessel injury, showed that I do have Endometriosis. Shouldn't really be surprised by that as I have read that since my mom had it I was 5-10 times more likely to have it depending on the source that I read. It wasn't in any spots that would allow it to be completely removed but she did free the organs and things that were stuck together so that alone should help with my pain level. The good news is that it was not on my ovaries or tubes and the tubes were clear. Now to decide what to do. We are thinking a 3 month course of Lupron if we can afford it.

Off to the dr today for a follow up and to see if she will release me for work. She said I could go back if I could drive without narcotics and until yesterday I hadn't made it a full day without any narcotic pain meds though I did take some at night to sleep. Today I am trying again to not take any and have actually gotten up, taken a shower, and gotten dressed. It looks nasty outside so I guess I won't be trying to go for a walk to the mail box. Right now though I am ready for a nap. I have 5 orders waiting with due dates of at least next Wednesday so I really want to try and get back in the work groove.

Hope all is well out there is cyberland.

tomorrow, Tomorrow...

The sun's already out but hopefully the answer will be coming out tomorrow. I have surgery set up for sometime in the morning and they are looking for the answer to the abdominal pain but also will be checking to see if my tubes are clear. It seems like it took forever to get to this point but I'm waiting for it to be over...