Tomorrow morning I face the ob/gyn. I will have to find the courage to ask her about the clomid/femera experiment. Not sure that this is the best time to start it but I'm sick of being in limbo about everything. Either it will make my ovaries work or it won't. I haven't met my weightloss goal and of course today I had a bit of a food meltdown but I still have 2 months to meet it.
We shall see what she has to say.....
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
On again, Off again...
I have been purposely avoiding some feelings. I haven't posted because right now I feel so rejected that why bother. Apparently we have been rejected by the organization to adopt a greyhound. Right now, we haven't even been able to get them to return our calls so that we can find out if it is just over the condition of the house or something that could be fixed. I am so confused. She asked us to put the railing back up and we are working on that... it can be done at a moment's notice and would have been if they had called with another dog to meet but since they haven't we have been waiting for the weather to clear so that we can strip it and repaint it. My husband won't work on it in the garage even with drop clothes down because he is worried that the cat might get out there and somehow be impacted by the chemical stripper. Annoying but he has a point I guess since the cat does sneak out there occasionally. The house, it definitely needs painting. If I had been thinking that they would be that judgmental I would have mentioned that we are painting now. It should have been done already but we were sick in April and with running to my MIL's every other weekend basically it doesn't give us much time. Of course, I should have been doing it when we were slow at work but I really didn't want to paint when the windows couldn't be opened because of my asthma. The fence was fine according to the other person but it does need to be repainted. We are opting to replace the top bar instead because some of the caps need to be replaced anyhow. I called one contractor but he hasn't called back. Well, I should say he finally called back after a week and didn't leave a message so I didn't call him back yet.
So obviously, yes the house needs some work but we were in process of doing that. We should have thought ahead and waited until the spring to apply apparently. My question is though... since we are not even good enough to adopt a dog, how the hell are we ever going to be good enough to be selected as parents? Yep, that's my conclusion too... we won't be. What is the point? Seriously... why bother?
So obviously, yes the house needs some work but we were in process of doing that. We should have thought ahead and waited until the spring to apply apparently. My question is though... since we are not even good enough to adopt a dog, how the hell are we ever going to be good enough to be selected as parents? Yep, that's my conclusion too... we won't be. What is the point? Seriously... why bother?
Sunday, April 25, 2010
One Word Meme
You.
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.
No.
Explanations.
Not as easy as you might think…
1. Yourself: Tired
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend [husband, actually] : Gaming
3. Your hair: Frizzy
4. Your mother/stepmother: Home
5. Your dog: None
6. Your favorite item: Pink
7. Your dream last night: Nothing
8. Your favorite drink: Tea
9. Your dream car: Unsure
10. The room you are in: Living-room.
12. Your fear: Rejected
13. What you want to be in 10 years: Mom
14. Who you hung out with last night: Marty
15. What you’re not: Fertile
16. Muffin: Marionberry
17: One of your wish list items: Painting
18: Time: Bed.
19. The last thing you did: Cook
20. What you are wearing: PJ's
21. Your favorite weather: Breezy
22. Your favorite book: Unknown
23. The last thing you ate: Dinner
24. Your life: Different
25. Your mood: Defeated
26. Your best friend(s): Happy
27. What are you thinking about right now? Bed
28. Your car: Dirty
29. What are you doing at the moment?: Typing
30. Your summer: Seattle
31. Your relationship status: Married
32. What is on your TV?: Lifetime
33. What is the weather like?: Rainy
34. When is the last time you laughed?: Earlier
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.
No.
Explanations.
Not as easy as you might think…
1. Yourself: Tired
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend [husband, actually] : Gaming
3. Your hair: Frizzy
4. Your mother/stepmother: Home
5. Your dog: None
6. Your favorite item: Pink
7. Your dream last night: Nothing
8. Your favorite drink: Tea
9. Your dream car: Unsure
10. The room you are in: Living-room.
12. Your fear: Rejected
13. What you want to be in 10 years: Mom
14. Who you hung out with last night: Marty
15. What you’re not: Fertile
16. Muffin: Marionberry
17: One of your wish list items: Painting
18: Time: Bed.
19. The last thing you did: Cook
20. What you are wearing: PJ's
21. Your favorite weather: Breezy
22. Your favorite book: Unknown
23. The last thing you ate: Dinner
24. Your life: Different
25. Your mood: Defeated
26. Your best friend(s): Happy
27. What are you thinking about right now? Bed
28. Your car: Dirty
29. What are you doing at the moment?: Typing
30. Your summer: Seattle
31. Your relationship status: Married
32. What is on your TV?: Lifetime
33. What is the weather like?: Rainy
34. When is the last time you laughed?: Earlier
Thursday, April 08, 2010
2010 Book Challenge
Dragondreamer's Lair is hosting a book challenge again this year. I set my goal at 40 books since last year I exceeded my goal of 35. I keep track of my books at Goodreads.com and there is a widget in my sidebar that shows my recently read books (not only 2010).
2010 Read List
1. Heart and Soul by Maeve Binchy
2. The Good Sister by Diana Diamond
3. My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult
4. Prevention's Sugar Solution
5. The Pursuit of Other Interests by Jim Kokoris
6. The Pearl in the Storm by Tori Murden McClure
7. Now or Never: Why we must act now to end climate change and create a sustainable future by Tim Flannery
2010 Read List
1. Heart and Soul by Maeve Binchy
2. The Good Sister by Diana Diamond
3. My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult
4. Prevention's Sugar Solution
5. The Pursuit of Other Interests by Jim Kokoris
6. The Pearl in the Storm by Tori Murden McClure
7. Now or Never: Why we must act now to end climate change and create a sustainable future by Tim Flannery
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Today...
is the first day of spring yet there is ucky white stuff on my lawn. The last few days have felt more like spring then today does. I hope that this batch of wintery gloom doesn't kill off the budding flowers throughout our area.
Today I have a "Tips and Toes" party where I will be refusing to have anyone touch my feet... no Thank you! Brownies are in the oven and I just made some in a mini muffin pan to bring with me. This party has been frustrating for a lot of reasons but hopefully it turns out well.
Work has picked up slightly and there is a potential for a lot more work due to someone else being offered a staff position so their regular work will hopefully fall to me. I still have some qualms about continuing but I think that for the next several months there will definitely be a lot of adjusting going on so hopefully I will be able to find my niche.
I am really enjoying my support group. Even though at times I wonder just how I will fit in to the group but for the most part it is a good experience for me. I have reached out and joined a few other meetup groups but I don't know what I am going to do with them. One of them is a local book group that has monthly meetings and 50 members but the meetings only have 15 slots so I don't really understand how that works out. Most likely because not everyone is interested in the same books. I sent a message to a leader of another book group to find out when they meet because the book group at my local library meets the same time as my weight loss support group and well... not going to lie, it is a bunch of old people. I have been to the library when they are in session there wasn't anyone under 45 in the room with the majority over 65. There is an afternoon session but I peeked it at that one too and it is mostly really senior citizen women. Not that this is bad by any means, it just isn't what I am looking for right now. I am hoping to find a group that is either very diverse or is more a group of women in their late 20's to early 40's.
Still no dog and I am debating on if I should call or not. It has clearly been over a month and now I am worried that they think we aren't interested. I wish that the woman had email as it would be so much easier than taking the time to call which seems like harassing... even though I know it is not that. Their paperwork is covered with the advice to be patient but we are just at 12 weeks out and that was their longest lead time.
Happy First Day of Spring...
Today I have a "Tips and Toes" party where I will be refusing to have anyone touch my feet... no Thank you! Brownies are in the oven and I just made some in a mini muffin pan to bring with me. This party has been frustrating for a lot of reasons but hopefully it turns out well.
Work has picked up slightly and there is a potential for a lot more work due to someone else being offered a staff position so their regular work will hopefully fall to me. I still have some qualms about continuing but I think that for the next several months there will definitely be a lot of adjusting going on so hopefully I will be able to find my niche.
I am really enjoying my support group. Even though at times I wonder just how I will fit in to the group but for the most part it is a good experience for me. I have reached out and joined a few other meetup groups but I don't know what I am going to do with them. One of them is a local book group that has monthly meetings and 50 members but the meetings only have 15 slots so I don't really understand how that works out. Most likely because not everyone is interested in the same books. I sent a message to a leader of another book group to find out when they meet because the book group at my local library meets the same time as my weight loss support group and well... not going to lie, it is a bunch of old people. I have been to the library when they are in session there wasn't anyone under 45 in the room with the majority over 65. There is an afternoon session but I peeked it at that one too and it is mostly really senior citizen women. Not that this is bad by any means, it just isn't what I am looking for right now. I am hoping to find a group that is either very diverse or is more a group of women in their late 20's to early 40's.
Still no dog and I am debating on if I should call or not. It has clearly been over a month and now I am worried that they think we aren't interested. I wish that the woman had email as it would be so much easier than taking the time to call which seems like harassing... even though I know it is not that. Their paperwork is covered with the advice to be patient but we are just at 12 weeks out and that was their longest lead time.
Happy First Day of Spring...
Saturday, March 06, 2010
Yikes... time is slipping by...
I haven't really been blogging on my weightloss blog either except for weigh-ins. Guess just not in that place at the moment.
Things are going well. I like my support group and am trying to reach out to build friendships with the other members. Some successful...some not so much. I have become more active on Sparkpeople instead of fitday. Part of that was the phone application that is free and part of that was a cleansing process. I have deleted most of my old entries on my weight loss blog about failure and what didn't work before. This journey is different. It needs to have a different ending so it needs a different route. I even locked myself out of my fitday account so that I can't go back and mull over what might have been or what I did before. This has actually helped me to focus on today and not yesterday.
Still no dog in our house. Not sure what is going on... I hope they didn't decide that we weren't a good prospect. I guess I will just follow up when it has been a month but I am not sure what to do.
We have a family Corn beef and Cabbage dinner tomorrow. Early because of some other commitments and events throughout the month. Should be interesting. I am actually going to attempt to make Irish soda bread but haven't decided what recipe I am going to follow.
I have jumped upon the Greek yogurt bandwagon but do not like the Fage 2%. I didn't grab any of the Fage 0% because I found the new Yoplait Greek at a much lower price and it doesn't have HFCS like their other products.
Other than that, DH has been in a bit of a funk. I think partly to do with his brother not really helping out much with his mom and that we have started clearing out the basement of his dads things. He seems to be really interested in planting a garden this year so we are trying to determine the best spot. The previous owners had put it right in line with all the utility wires and everything so not sure that is the best bet but I want it up closer to the house I think. I don't trust the neighbor kids.............
Happy Saturday!
Things are going well. I like my support group and am trying to reach out to build friendships with the other members. Some successful...some not so much. I have become more active on Sparkpeople instead of fitday. Part of that was the phone application that is free and part of that was a cleansing process. I have deleted most of my old entries on my weight loss blog about failure and what didn't work before. This journey is different. It needs to have a different ending so it needs a different route. I even locked myself out of my fitday account so that I can't go back and mull over what might have been or what I did before. This has actually helped me to focus on today and not yesterday.
Still no dog in our house. Not sure what is going on... I hope they didn't decide that we weren't a good prospect. I guess I will just follow up when it has been a month but I am not sure what to do.
We have a family Corn beef and Cabbage dinner tomorrow. Early because of some other commitments and events throughout the month. Should be interesting. I am actually going to attempt to make Irish soda bread but haven't decided what recipe I am going to follow.
I have jumped upon the Greek yogurt bandwagon but do not like the Fage 2%. I didn't grab any of the Fage 0% because I found the new Yoplait Greek at a much lower price and it doesn't have HFCS like their other products.
Other than that, DH has been in a bit of a funk. I think partly to do with his brother not really helping out much with his mom and that we have started clearing out the basement of his dads things. He seems to be really interested in planting a garden this year so we are trying to determine the best spot. The previous owners had put it right in line with all the utility wires and everything so not sure that is the best bet but I want it up closer to the house I think. I don't trust the neighbor kids.............
Happy Saturday!
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