These days....

Lots of things going on these days. DH and I have started to get info on becoming foster parents but I'm hesitating. I think we should head to one last appointment with the RE to make sure we aren't missing any options other than IVF. DH's counts didn't come back great on his last tests even though my numbers were actually normal. Weightloss, eh, I'm down around 30 lbs in 3 years but have been stuck for a year and half in the same range. I blog on sparkpeople about weightloss these days. Not very exciting but if you want to see what's going on here is the link Better get back to work. Procrastination is my name right now...nice to meet you. :)

2011 Book Challenge

Still working on my goal of 45 books for Dragondreamer's Lair book challenge. I have a total of 32 books read plus 2 audio books completed so still need another 12 or so depending on how many more audio books I get finished. I have given up on just using audio books when I work out. Right now I am listening to "Bitch is the New Black" by Helena Andrews.

I think you can access my list of read in 2011 by clicking on the title of this post.

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Negative... what else is new.

My world could change or crumble with a phone call

Today I am waiting for that yes or no call from the doctor. I had a followup from my surgery yesterday (all good) and when I told her my symptoms over the past 3 weeks she thought a blood pregnancy test was in order just to make sure that I am not one of the 1% that HPT's don't work for as I have never had a positive even when I probably should have.

Here's hoping that the nausea, fatigue, constipation, headaches, lack of concentration, and weepyness over the past 3 weeks along with a super light period are for a positive reason.....
and not just a manifestation of some other issue such as depression or thyroid.

I'm terrified of the answer since with a positive our life will change. With a negative I'm afraid of letting my emotions take over.


Supposed to know before 2pm today.... Yikes.

Edit 3:30pm: No phone call, the big question now, do I call or assume it is negative?

Oh how you taunt me...

Oh how you taunt me, you silly pee stick. Today is cycle day 26 and I woke up with a migraine so as a desperate attempt to find some sunshine today I decided to use FMU to see if we actually caught the egg that I supposedly released. Depending on the light there is a slight line but I took the darn thing apart and it must just be an evaporation line. It's not over yet but if my headache is any indication it will be on Sunday. Yay, just in time for the worst day of my cycle to be while we are flying to Florida for my Grandmother's funeral. Gah!

Holding on to a thread of hope...

The Truth About trying